Here's hoping Dexter Fletcher isn't a fucking gross human being! Bryan Singer being fired from production on my birthday (December 4) was a really lovely and unexpected present!
06 December, 2017
01 November, 2017
When Bryan Singer was first announced as the director of the upcoming biopic, my first thought was, "Maybe now this fucking thing will get made!" My second thought was, "Why do I feel really weird about Bryan Singer?"
Why I didn't look it up at the time, I don't know. I mean, I'm online like, ALL THE TIME, so you'd think I'd find the time to do a fucking Google search! Anyway, I follow him on Instagram because I want to be kept in the loop about the biopic. A week or so ago, I clicked on one of the pictures he posted (can't remember which one. Doesn't matter), and I was drawn to a comment calling him a pervert. I read a couple more comments saying pretty much the same thing, and that's when it felt like the wind got knocked out of me.
Bryan Singer was accused of sexually abusing a minor in 2014. His accuser had since dropped the lawsuit - which might help explain why it was lodged in the back of my mind, but this kind of thing should never be made to disappear. Sexual assault is one of the absolute worst things a person can do, and one of my rules in life is to always believe someone when they come forward.
Sexual assault is a pretty hot topic right now in the US. 64 people so far have come forward to say that film producer Harvey Weinstein has sexually assaulted them, and actor Kevin Spacey tried to deflect sexual abuse allegations recently by coming out as gay (as a queer man and assault survivor, I'd like to take this opportunity to say that Kevin Spacey is a fucking trash fire, and I have it on good authority that Spacey has harmed MANY boys and Anthony Rapp's situation was not a one-time accidental drunken slip-up. And I am not only livid about how all of those people have to live with that for the rest of their lives, I'm also livid that Spacey has tried to conflate homosexuality with pedophilia, and I'm furious at the entertainment industry as a whole for protecting people like Spacey (and Roman Polanski, Woody Allen, Sean Penn, James Franco, Bill Cosby, Donald Trump, music producer Dr. Luke - just to name a few). I'm furious that our society demands assault survivors provide every bit of proof even though it will never be enough, when the accused celebrity just simply needs to say, "I didn't do it,", and that's somehow fucking sufficient.
I've been wrestling with myself for days. Is it okay that I'm still excited about the biopic? Would I be indirectly enabling a child abuser if/when I go see and/or eventually buy the movie upon release? Would anyone involved with the film in any capacity continue working on it or allow Bryan Singer to work on it if his behavior wasn't swept under the rug by the most morally bankrupt legal teams and publicists money can buy?
I don't want to contribute to the idea that someone who creates content that brings me joy must be an infallible saint. I don't want to contribute to the silence and weight far too many of us carry because our society treats assault survivors of all genders like garbage.
16 September, 2017
I was hoping to find a physical copy of this somewhere, but no. Oh well. The Kindle app is free, and it wasn’t expensive. Still, I’m bummed I won’t get to physically add this to the book part of my collection.
11 September, 2017
Coming soon... On the outside...
Okay, I'm done.
FFAD in Boston was spectacular! I feel bad that I didn't do all that much but have been taking all week to recover and gather my thoughts. But a post is coming, and hopefully it will be marvelous!
01 September, 2017
I've been trying to find out what the hell happened with Soshi Games for over(?) a year. I'm really truly heartbroken that this really awesome app won't be completed. I'm also really annoyed that there seems to have been no announcement made anywhere else that I've seen.
Here's hoping we'll someday get another really great app that will actually be completed by a company that won't suddenly dry up!
26 July, 2017
There are no words that can convey the joy and thrill of seeing Queen and Adam Lambert AGAIN!
My friend George (hi, George!) was originally planning to come with me, but that couldn't pan out, so my friend Allison and I sat together instead. But George and a few of my other friends were definitely there with me in spirit!
I bought two tickets back in February and was fairly certain that me and George would have been at the very last row of our section (Section B), but fate decided to smile upon me again and... well, this was how close me and Allison were to the end of the catwalk!
I had an amazing time seeing them back in 2014, and I really enjoy the pictures I took, but I felt like I had focused too much on getting pictures and not just enjoying the show. So I vowed to do that this time! I took some shots with my cell phone, and they're blurry, but I like them!
One of my favorite parts of the show was Adam calling out the Bastard Queen Fans who like to be pissy because "Adam's not Freddie Mercury." His eloquent response to that was, "Yeah, no shit!" I personally ran into two of those folks before the show. One of them was behind me and Allison at the concert, and he saw my phone's wallpaper (Wembley Freddie) and said, "That's the real singer! Adam's not the real singer!" At some point Allison and I had to turn to correct him when he told the people he was with(?) that John Deacon had died. I was super worried this guy was going to be a repeat of the fucker from 2014 who kept spouting incorrect trivia and talking through "Love Of My Life".
Thankfully, he was very easy to ignore during the show!
To help myself prepare for maximum fun for the concert, I avoided reading setlists, only stuck to reading review headlines (all of which are overwhelmingly positive), and didn't listen to any Queen for a little over a week. I was torn about whether to listen to Adam's new single, "Two Fux", because I didn't know if I wanted to be able to sing along or not. I chose to not listen beforehand in case I'd fall into a tour news rabbit hole. It's a fun track! Give it a listen if you haven't yet!
When Brian made his way to the end of the catwalk and was handed his acoustic, I was able to move a bit closer. I had been waiting for so long to feel that connection between Brian and fans during "Love Of My Life" AND I FINALLY GOT IT! I was finally right in it! And while he wasn't looking my way, I didn't feel any separation from the experience! In between verses, he noticed some folks had their phone lights on, so jokingly asked, "Did some of you bring your mobiles?" and the next thing I knew, fucking EVERYONE'S phones lit up! It's not the same as using a lighter, but it's a different kind of beautiful.
Brian didn't bring out his selfie stick in 2014, and I had thought that was indication that he wasn't having a good time at that show. But when he addressed us this time he spoke with such warmth and sincerity, that I probably worried for nothing. I can't wait for him to post the picture!
I didn't get a super great look at Roger last time, so I made sure to get plenty of shots this time! It was so great getting to actually see him!
The whole show was amazing! I'm so glad I got to go and share it with people!
17 July, 2017
I'm at the phase where I'm not going to listen to any Queen until the concert on the 25th because I want to ensure maximum excitement the night of (I've also been avoiding reading setlists)!
This is really bad timing because I'm still really enjoying the On Air CD set.
I also have enough space that I could listen to Queen II uninterrupted.
Are the kids still saying "FML"? Because FML!